The Center of Attention

Hell, its been forever since I touched this thing. Sorry mates to anyone who was interested in reading whats inside it.
Been busy with bloody school work And Theo.

No updates though, bugger it.

Badcrumble, however, my nanny gone Death Eater, has yet to be spotted and is on the loose...we got an owl from her the other day, sis says.
She sent muffins and a few magiced towels to wipe down any dirty windows.

...How the bloody hell does she manage to still do her job while on the run from the law?!

Core, its been a while since I touched this bloody thing.
Theo and I are usualy too busy.

Gah! Homework makes me oh so sad. I feel as if these rudy teachers have strapped large boulders onto my legs and wrists as to keep me from trying to leave this mass pile of parchments and ink. Clever buggers.

And while everyone seems to have calmed down from their random mood swings ironicly just as we finish our problems it appears though things have gone back to as normal as one could hope for at such a time!

I'm hungry...

[Private to Theo]
You are far too busy for your own good. Stop it.
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[Private to Draco]
It feels more bloody empty than usual without you here.
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[Private to Morag]
HA! I'm happy and your not! Na-Na-nana-na!
Out of your bloody funk yet? It seemed you were in a bad mood for nearly a week!
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[Private to Teachers]
Why do you torchure me so!? WHY!?
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Umm...Is it just me or do I smell drama in these halls?

What on earth is with everyone? It seems everyone has a blood problem of some sort these days. Oddly enough, everyone but the fags.
Its not like they're big problems anyway, at least according to the grape vine we call a student body.

An dbecause of all this I've come to dislike a few people more than usual.
Fuck them for calling me names.
And I'd like to thank most of you for not staring at Theo and I anymore.

[Private to Morag]
Last we spoke you seemed a tad troubled.
Is there something wrong?
You know you can tell me.
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[Private]
I need a way to get back at that bitch Lavender for calling me names.
She's not one to talk. Perhaps a prank.
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[Private to Draco]
I now envy your choice of leaving the school.
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[Private to Theo]
Meet with me later, love?
Another night without a nightmare. I'm overjoyed!
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I just got word of...rather odd news.

I'm sure some of you know my housekeeper I constantly tlaked about...Ms.Badcrumble.

Well..she...she turned out to be...well shes a...

Badcrulbe is a Death Eater.

The woman who raised me cus my parents wouldnt turned out to be...a Death Eater.

....I must say I'm in a bit of shock.

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I have...no words. The old bag was a lie? She was just a fake? So I have no true parents then eh? The ones that spawned me dont even look at me. I dont belive I was once picked up by my father. Mother, I was her chore, a task, unlike Jade and Laurance.
....And the only woman who could ever bring me up...turns out to be fake.

....I have no words.

Apparently somehow the word about, well Theo and I leaked to my brother somehow through a friend he still has at Hogwarts. The bastard is trying to blackmail me into not letting him tell mum and dad. Frankly I dont care, they'll ignor it anyway.

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[Private to Theo]

Watched you a bit last night.
Youre so adorable when you sleep.
Didnt see any hints of nightmares.
You getting fixed!
Youre improving everyday!

...Youre cute when you sleep.
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Now that life is back on track...

Halloween's coming up! Nearly forgot all about it! What with our spat and homework.
I need a costume.
Is is childish to still dress up? I dont think so.
What other opertunity do you get to strut about in outlandish clothing and act like a complete loony?

Thats why I love this holiday. And plus, Badcrumble always sends bucket loads of candy.
Perhaps Theo and I could do a theme. He'd probibly hate me for that.

You all remember my costumes in the past.

1st Year: Muggle School Teacher.
2ed Year: Prof. Snape.
3ed Year: Dementor. (with Draco,Crabe,Goyle&Daphne)
4th Year: Perished Husband and Wife. (with Morag McDougal)
5th year: Draco Malfoy! (my favorite costume!)
6th Year: Hermes, god of tricksters, liars and theives.
7th Year: ????

Any ideas? Perhaps someone wants to do a joint costume with me?
Lisa? Morag? Theo? Draco?

Sugestions?

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We had a spat.

But...this happens to all couples right?
I mean...its not like we'll just...leave one another.
I couldnt bear it. Not now.

He thinks I cant "fix him" or "cure" him. Maybe not, but I sure as bloody hell try. And the fact is...I dont need him to be "fixed" or "cured".
I dont think he understands that.

Fucking hell. I need to find a noose
Maybe I am simply horrid.

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I'm simply horrid.

No need to ask why, there are plenty of reasons. Take a guess and you'll probibly find one.

This year isnt exactly going as planned...and what I thought was a good plan didnt seem to go smoothly.

[Private to Theo]

...I'm sorry.

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[Private]
I hate spats
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((Sorry for my absence. Again with the whole, lack of internet thing.))

Things get boring around this bloody school if one waits long enough.

I'm confident if I didnt have people like Theo, Lisa, Morag, and other random friendlies I'm afraid I would perish. So bloody well on them.

In other news, my dear brother owled me a box this morning. Of course when I opened it, it exploded and I now have rather noticable burn marks on my forehead and one of my eyebrows has a slight nitch in it.

I fucking hate siblings. They should die.

[Private to Theo]

You didnt fuss last night, at least not like usual.
But there are some red stains on our sheets. Dont worry I took care of them.
I hope you feel better.

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[Private to Lisa & Morag]

My dear brother has given me an idea.
Perhaps we can send this little exploding box to that bloody fourth year. Yea?

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I.
Hate.
This.

Does ANYONE have any idea how utterly horrid it is to try doing homework in a library full of first years? Its a nightmare! Also.

I.
Need.
Help!

[Private to Theo]

Sorry to be a bother, love, but could you help me?
I feel as though Ruins is going to kill me.

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Not as many nightmares as usual. I'm so glad to see.
Theo seems to be improving slightly, but there are those...occasions.
He has less nightmares but more scratches.

I feel as if I cant do this job right, trying to help him.
I only seem to be be leading bad to worse. But unfortunetly, I like the boy far too much to just...give up.

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I'm not good at my job. I'm sorry Theo.
I'll try harder though. I promise.


[Private to Sunshine]

How are ya mate?
Doing well I hope.

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[Private to Anyone Who Wont Make Fun of Me]

Fairy Story by Tracey Davis

In days of old when knights were bold
there lived a fearsom dragon
And the Prince he was in great distress
cus his country's spirits laggin'
Until one day there came a knight
he was handsom, young and charming
and he slew the dragon with his sword
with a smile that was so disarming

Said the Prince 'I wish to know your name'
Said the Knight 'Sir do not bother'
Yay varily one night said he
the same as any other.

The Prince then said 'In a maidens bed tonight you'll take your leasure'
and you'll be rewarded for your deeds
with a night of exalted pleasure.

One maiden she has raven hair, she's fair and young and chaste
and she sleeps all night in the pale moonlight
naked to her waist
The other maiden shes so fair, shes the fiarest in the town
and she sleeps all night in the pale moonlight
naked from her small waist down.

The knight, he stayed for many hours inside the castle walls.
But the ending to my story is not what it seems at all.
For in nither bed of ither maid was he repaid for his glory...
For he slept all night with the Prince insted cus this is a FAIRY story.

THE END

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I am in a good mood.
Not sure why. I'm actually positive why.
Unfortunetly homework is killing my mood. I shall need to study now.

Quidditch coming up soon. No offence to any Gryffs I have befriended but...

GO SLYTHERIN!

Sorry mates, have to suport as you do.

I had a nice afternoon.
In your FACE Crabbe, Goyle, didnt walk in on THAT didja?

[Private : Theo]

Your a god, you know this, yes?
And you should be treated as such.

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Perfect, I must say, simply PERFECT.

Thanks to Malfoy The boy blunder, Theo and I are outed, just like that.
If it wasnt bad enough that Millicent knew or even Crabbe and Goyle.

This was a mistake, a huge mistake. Not dating Theo, that was NOT a mistake.
The mistake was brining it to others.
To Lisa for help.
Obviously because of Morag Fucking McDougal and her blabbering mouth...ugh!

kdjfktghkdithdk385uiof894h I'm a bit pissed off I am.

I just hope it doesnt get out of hand. I can only hope Smith and Finnigan dont befall the same fate.

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[Private to Theo]

Please forgive me...

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Well...bugger.

There are a few select people I would like to kill right now for a number of reasons. However I wont because that might not do so well in the long run. Perhaps later.

Maybe I should just relax.
If only the Profesors could too, unfortunetly that isnt the case and seem to only pile on more homework out of sheer spite.

I need a hug drink...badly.

Obviously there is no one left to talk to.

[Private]

I think I need to lie down, feeling light headed.
Before I couldnt so much as touch Theo in public, now I cant even look at him.
I know what torture is now.

I've been a whole 2 hours without him....

I miss him terribly.

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[Private to Theo]

I miss you terribly.

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DO WE NOT HAVE LOCKS ON THESE FUCKING DOORS!?

...I'm not sure what happened...exactly.
I thought I was helping, wasnt I? Wasnt I just...being normal? Wasnt he?
This hurts my head. Oh well, it doesnt matter...I'll just have to try harder...

I really shouldnt have kicked the bed. Foot started bleeding and now it hurts to walk. Fuck all.
Why couldnt Malfoy just take Crabbe and Goyle with him!?

Maybe I did something wrong?
He didnt do anything wrong...did Theo?
Wanst I helping?
I'm doing a horrid job.

What did I do wrong?

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I hear em at night.
I'm scared to think his nightmares are getting worse every night. Thankfully every so often we get a 'quiet night' but they only come so often.

He mutters, talks kinda, mostly about stairs, his mum. I dont know what to do.
After he falls asleep, sometimes, I sleep next to him, with him, hoping it'll keep them away, although I know it probibly might not help. But its all I can do.

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[Private to Theo]

Quiet night?
You were talking the other night, mum, stairs, again.
I just...I just need you to be alright.

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Homework's a drag, Ravenclaws who try to keep secrets are amusing though...and have quite a grip, I have a bruise now.

I heard we had a special guest. Why he didnt visit US I'm not sure about!
Thats beside the point, however.
Been looking through books about dreams, nothing seems to be usefull and I'm too scared to talk to the Divination profesors, they scare me. Feel like they're reading my mind!

Things are better. All better.

[Private]

So...I have a boyfriend now. Never had one of those before. As odd as that may seem.
Feel funny, but good funny, not bizarre funny.
I cant stand him crying, got to fix that. And one hell of a kisser.

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Well because the homework has finally let up and Theo's been helping me I find myself without much to do after classes. Theo's usualy busy, sad.

Got a letter from Jade and Laurance. They say something new has been sweeping across the muggle comunity, something they call the Macarena. Sounds compleatly insane but apparently it's quite enjoyable.

Not to self: return book to library

[Private to Theo]
Curse work, keeping us occupied.
Feeling better I asume.
We'll be seeing you soon then, eh?
Hope so.
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I...hate...Bloody Detention!

Mud! The WHOLE Great Hall! I'm going to kill Peeves...or I would if someone didnt do that for me already!
Bloody Filch!

If I wasnt tired before I sure as hell am now and now with no time to do any of the random homework assignments givin to me. I'm going to die, I know it!

[Private to Peeves]
YOU BASTARD!! MUD!? MUD!?!?!
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Got a letter from Laurance, said Dad's still in Ireland. He's been there for three bloody months...why? Mum is apparently off to find out.

I cant exactly see how my week can get much worse.

Yes I can...he could say no...

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It's going to take more than a small fit to stop me.

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I was correct as usual. Homework piled on within the first bloody week! Anyone else remember when we had as much as four assignments a week back in first year? Now its four a blooming day! Isnt the least be pleasing!

I swear these teachers are out to kill us via homework. Still managed to get my notes done...with some help. Thank the heavens for Theodore Nott.

[Private to Theo]
Thank you again love mate.
Hope your still feeling alright.
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I like him.

So, back at school, the old salt mines...waited all summer to get back and now I want to leave.
Reckon of course, first day back, no doubt homework from McGonagall and probibly Lupin. Who'd a thought the old ringer would be back, eh!?
I dont mind em, probibly the best DADA teacher we've ever had next to Snape.

[Private]
Its different...I feel no incredible urge to come on to someone...well and mean it, I mean.
Never liked someone before. Dont exactly know how it feels. But I get the feeling I'm going to know soon.
Mother and Father didnt show up to send me off, just Badcrumble, Laurance and Jade. Sad that your two siblins that hate you show up before your own parents. Fuck em I supose it doesnt matter...
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As for the notes we were suposed to take over the summer for Potions...can anyone lend me those? Though I had nothing to do, nothing was better than homework I asure you.

[Private]
I like him...
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....I'm bored. Don’t patronize me!
This ruddy thing has been the only thing keeping me on the brink just before insanity.
I can only pray the days speed up as we draw closer to the day we board the train.
Mum had Badcrumble purchase my school-stuff elsewhere instead of Diagon Alley, due to its late assault it's become a "high-risk" area, as my parents call it.

[Private]
Found myself singing again. Why? No idea. What song? Cant remember.
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I need something to occupy my time. This morning I waxed the floors and slid around in my socks for a while, but that only resulted in a nasty bruise on my arm. I re-alphabetized father's book-shelf, which took only a short while. Jade and Laurence stopped by to visit mum but she was out with her friends, shopping. They only stayed shortly, as if simply to annoy me and left. Bugger them.

I also started reading a book on the Bermuda Triangle, but that doesn’t last me too long. I’ve also taken to creating sculptures out of silverware. Its quite amazing really. I've also taken three baths and four showers just to keep myself busy and mobile. I find it now pointless to get dressed. So I’m not.

[Private]
I've also resorted to my old habit of blowing bubbles of my tongue.
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Now that was an interesting and most amusing visit to Thames.

[Private]
Could have gone better but I did it didnt I? There, its out there.
I do have to admit though, thanks to that little venture, that bench and that park is now one of my favorite places as of now.
That kiss was the dogs bollocks.
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School starts soon, the train ride is soon. Perhaps one of the first times I look forward to it.
Wasnt able to sleep so I actually did a bit of homework assigned over the summer. Finish it? Of course not! Who do you think I am?

On a side note, I most deffinatly have not lost my touch.

I was bored and just saw this bloody thing sitting there. Might as well pick it up and put it to its pointless use.

Mum's back from god-knows where and sent Badcruble out to fetch my school things as her first task back on the job. Dad's still of in ungodly places doing ungodly work and being all around ungodly as a small patch of dirt in a sunny spot in the middle of a manure field.

[Private]

I need someone something to do! Then again, Nott and Draco seemed most delightful. Then again something seemed to be bothering them both. Malfoy I can guess easily enough. Half the wizarding world out to get you is more than enough to worry about. Theo however...As a...well...new friend of his, I feel I should investigate.

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[Private to Theo]
Meet on the train, yes?
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...Bugger kites. They piss me off they do.

School's going to start up again soon. Maybe I'll run into Finnigan and Smith on the train, catch up with those two blokes. Right fun they are.

Mum, Dad and Badcrumble are to be coming home at the end of this week. Bugger all, I was hoping for another parentless week in this place. I suppose not.

[Private]

I do wonder if Draco will be bold enough to come back to school. I doubt it but you never know with that looker. Oh well.

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In other news, Jade and Laurance are due back home to see me off to school. Sometime I dont know how to take this. Are they going to be a pain...again...or a delight...again? Odd siblings.